I feel so suicidal when i go to school... please answer?

School is starting in 2 months and the days p by so quickly, and im scared of starting a new school year in this school that i HATE. My school is so judgemental about a persons appearance and honestly, i'm ugly as f*** . Ever since me and my friends fight, i had low self-esteem and i felt worthless, and the 2 people that pick on me the most are in my cl... I just can't go there !! i tried talking to my parents and they DON'T CARE. I hate life !!! I want my summer vacation to last forever :'( , I'm thinking about talking to my counsellor about this again but i don't know how to start my conversation off, i'll probably start crying very loud and its embarring to have my councillor pick me up from the cl like every week (Happened last year) it's so weird :( i don't know what to do... I sometimes just feel like sitting down alone at recess without hanging out with this stupid crowd... :( I hate life ever since i came to this school (last year) I even started cutting myself I JUST HATE THIS :(:(:( I don't know what to do anymore please someone tell me what to do !! :(